i guess there are many times when i just leave things as it is.
dont care, ampathy.
pretend it never happened.
pretend everything was just a dream/nightmare.

running away.
self denial.

i dont know la.
sigh.

i just cant get close to ppl.
happens so many times again and again.
first it was..den her, den now again.
sigh sigh.

maybe i'm jinx la.
dont get near me,
you will be happier. (:

leijh was asking me abt friendship today.
hmm.
why are they so many things to say,
yet so little.

i dont understand.

am i trying too hard?
maybe you're misinterpreting me?
maybe i'm too sensitive?

maybe, it wasnt meant to end up this way.

perhaps its my fault how many things end up.

sigh.
hate myself (:

i dont even know what i want.
selfdenial.

why is it so difficult to be high all the time.
to smile and laugh.
and feel surrounded by ppl u love.

pure joy. (:
yay.

is it really so difficult?

i'll be true, i'll be useful
i'll be cavalier
i'll be yours my dear
and i'll belong to you if you just let me through
this is as easy as lovers go so don't complicate it
by hestitating and this is wonderful as loving goes, this is
tell on me what's the sense in waiting